Half of the year is done and wow its been a busy one. I moved into a new apartment, had so many lovely visitors, and have been a visitor in quite a few places myself. Despite all of the busyness and chaos though, love has prevailed. I think looking for it is the thing to hone in on.
In chemistry (and life), equilibrium is a key concept. According to Le Chatelier’s principle, when there is stress on a system, that system will compensate in an equal and opposite direction. When thinking about my own life and this concept of maintaining a static equilibrium, I sometimes become fixated on getting back to this middle point. What I am realizing though is that all of the beautiful moments and little joys happen in a dynamic state- when I take a different route home, or unexpectedly run into a friend, or my day surprises me. It is so hard to accept a state of unknowing, but I am done ruining my own life in pursuit of a senseless seizure of control. Because no matter what I do, the system will come back to equilibrium anyways.
My focus is often pulled in a million different directions. Recently, instead of saying I’ve been burning the candle at both ends, I’ve been saying its been burning at all ends. And from a productivity standpoint, there can be some logistical problems there. But I am also done apologizing for putting my love and energy into so many different places. I am so grateful for friends who are understanding and kind and reciprocal in effort. There are some people with whom maintaining a relationship is so easy. It makes me realize that perhaps they all should be this way.
I started the year as I always do, with Sabrina making vision boards. I came across a little post with the title, which made me immediately watch the movie “Love Actually.” Living in the city of brotherly love, is a constant reminder of “LOVE” amidst the bustle. As I sat at a big dining room table with my family this weekend, I realized how fleeting this feeling can be. We were able to gather all 5 of us for a mere 24 hours. However ungraspable this feeling may be, it does not negate the fact that love, actually, is all around. I hope whoever is reading this can feel, search for, or create this feeling in their days or weeks to come.
ANAGRAM 